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strength from above

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

hope is rising.

i feel it within me.
self-control
love
joy
peace

they're all coming back to me
i feel stronger, strong enough to fight with my feelings
inside of me.
yes, thank God.
i love you.

Ferrari(:

writtern @11:23 PM

renew me oh lord

Lord i come to you,
let my heart be changed, renewed
flowing from the grace
that i've found in you.
Lord i've come to know
the weaknesses i see in me
will be stripped away
by the power of your love

Hold me close
let your love surround me.
bring me near
draw me to your side
and as i wait
i'll rise up like an eagle
and i will soar with you
your spirit leads me on
by the power of your love.

writtern @11:03 PM

it sucks.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

it sucks when you're helpless.
it sucks when you know there's a problem,
and you can't seem to find a solution.
in a three words, i feel useless.
hmm.

it sucks when you rmb
the joy you once shared with someone.
and then it was taken away.
rubbed away.
disappeared like it nvr happened before.

it sucks when there's so many people around you.
and you realise, when you fall in the pits,
there's no one who is there to help,
or is able to help.

yes i may be deemed as a total immature girl.
one who needs to start facing my problems.
but i'm tired.
and what's the problem with that.
dreadfully tired.
who understands?
seems like it's all my own fault.

alternative solutions, unthinkable yet so tempting.

but no,
God is with me.
He will guide me through.
i shall repeat this to myself.
everyday, every hour, every second.
i will hang on.
i will pull through.
who cares if no one's there.
i can do it alone
with God.
yes i can.

heaven, my final destination.
looking forward.

Yes Lord, i thank you.
and i love you.

babbling on,
ferrari.

they will WANT me, but, they will not HAVE me.
cause my dream is fading, and i'm beginning to believe it'll never happen.
what can a little girl do?
feel small. that's all.

writtern @5:41 PM

hourglass

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Under the grey clouds,
Walking alone in the rain,
Tears pouring down my face,
With each step there was pain.

People once said,
Life’s like an hourglass,
And when you reach pit bottom
Many people will just pass.

However there’s one person,
The one who’s chosen,
To heal the wounded heart,
And then your hourglass turn.

But whoever that person may be,
He has not appeared.
I’m still waiting and pondering,
If that dream would ever be real.

writtern @1:04 AM

Friday, May 15, 2009

jerks.
crushed.
die.

writtern @10:13 AM

great wk.

Monday, May 4, 2009

woohoo. haha.
k this past wkwas kinda CRAZYYYYYYYY
oh well.
monday went swimming with bel and janiceee. haha.
funny sia.

then tues wed dunno do what. forgot.

then thurs go watch WOLVERINEEE
haha.
met bel downstairs then go meet janice.
take train
go eat subway.
at plaza sing.
it had horrible lighting.
and no ice.
tsk.
then after that.
oh.
gabriel bryan and ian came.
actually not meeting them for dinner but somehow, they found their way to subway too. I THINK. hahaha
so yeah. we finished earlier and left to change bel's clothes. sadly cannot.
then we go shoppingggggg. haha
oh and then went to meet the three guys.
took our cookies into the movie theatre haha.
at first, the seating arrangement was this:
bel, janice, me, ah soh, bryan, ian.
then i realised i wanted to sit with ian. haha.
so moved(:
bel,janice,ahsoh,bryan,me,ian.
poor janice. haha
sit beside ahsoh. hahahah
oh well
stupid bryan, keep telling me everybody gonna die, wolverine's gonna kill him, gonna kill me and everybody else. what on earth. haha
thanks ian for explaining lots of stuff i didn't understand HAH.
oh well, then at like 10 plus the movie finished.
so the girls left first.
haha.
BRYAN CHAN LOOKS LIKE WOLVERINE.
like seriously.
oh well
haha.

then FRIDAY.
went for SURE GET WET.
event by my parents' cell combined with two other adults cell and bccsc.
haha.
me, bel, janice, lynn, nicholas, olivia, aloysius.
all group leaders.
woohoo.
crazy luh.
my group was joy.
haha
but anyway we didn't win.
oh well.
it was fun though.
we zi high all the way la
sit van back to church.
then me bel lynn janice go crazy taking pictures.
haha
and yeah. me and bel went to 85 have supper.
with cheryl(bel's sister.)
yupps.

saturday
me and bel early morning to church study.
then go eat.
come back we bathe! cause super hot.
then go for service. OH YES. i. did. not. molest. or. touch. aaronchan.
yuck.
i just bang into him lor.
then ian anyhow say.
haish.
oh well after service and cell, we go eat.
then go back church study. haha
went to bathe again sia.
lol.
super hot.
then walked home with ahsoh and bel.

next day go church.
then after service eat, study, yeah.
then when chruch going close, left with wanxin and bryan.
go eat at pasir ris with ah soh(wearing army uniform)
and then go wanxin's house slack. hahah
at punggol sia.
then 9.30 left reach hom at 10 plus.
oh well.

nvr go school today.
should be studying. bye.
haha
Ferrari(:

a cruise ship.
it's supposed to be enjoyable, fun and a time of my life.
the first time i go in.
wooohooo.
then i step into the gambling den.
itake a risk
i ake a bet.
and finally ifail.
it leaves meebted.
and yes, ill rmb it forever.
then, the second time,
I rmb how the first time went
but still
i go in anyway,
cause the cruise, it's fun, many things i can do.
but then, the gamble comes again.
i take a risk, yet again.
and now, i'm one foot into debts.
i wanna get out.
i'm trying hard.
but then again, i wanna stay in.
and now i'm stuck
in between.

writtern @10:16 AM