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Saturday, June 28, 2008

tis the season to be crazy
falalalala lalalala
this is the nationals season
competitions everywhere!
wed, the guys c'div softballers had a match with RI.
went to watch.
they did well. but lost.
17-2
that's a good score though.
held them down well.
RI pitcher is 'WHOOSH' FAST!!
RI's grass is super nice hahas.
un-pluckable.
i went with angeline, jo jo and meiying after school to watch. hahas
then thurs was MY TEAM'S MATCH
we won RIVERSIDE
32-0
great.
hahas. but sadly i didn't do a great job of batting.
congrats to angeline
HOMERUN hahas.
kinda disappointed with myself/
if riverside's ball i also can't bat, how to bat nanyang's?
oh well.
then ytd was guy's match against greendale
i went to school after my tuition to check on the guys.
they lost. but dunno what's the score.
i heard kenneth cried.
hongjun was kinda pissed.
so was desmond.
i felt super sad luh.
mistakes that were made caused the team's loss.
argh.
then saw angeline and jojo and meiying who went with them to watch.
started talking then i had tears in my eyes.
i dunno why i just felt so sad for them.
saw the team being so demoralized.
hongjun was super quiet.
so was kenneth.
ARGH.
tuesday i gonnna be a very stressful day for me!
piano exam in the morning
nanyang's match in the afternoon.
HELP!
lol

I CAN SEE CLEARLY NOW
by Jimmy Cliff

i can see clearly now the rain is gone
i can see all obstacles in my way
gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
it's gonna be a bright,bright,bright
Sun shiny day.

Oh yes i can make it now, the pain is gone
All the bad feelings have disappeared
Here is the rainbow i've been praying for
It's gonna be a bright, bright, bright
Sun shiny day.

Look all around, there's nothing but blue skies
Look straight ahead, nothing but blue skies.

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It's gonna be a bright bright bright
Sun shiny day.

that's a poem for all
ENJOY((:
Ferrari((:

writtern @11:07 AM

EMPOWER U

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

jeremy, brent, and me

me and jumana

HAFIZ and ME

me jeremy and marcus
sexy pigs!!

argh.
BRENT WILLIAM ROCKS
MARKIE ROCKS!!
i'm back from mindchamps course-empower u.

fri
i went for mindchamps.
i thought it was gonna be super boring and whateverrrr....
reached there, didn't know anyone.
kinda found jerome was from bbtc also.
registered
everyone silent.
then went to have a seat.
got to know the person beside me and beside the person
glen is sec 2 from kranji sec. bryan is sec 1 from i forgot where.
so we hanged around everywhere we went.
then dinner got to know albert who is sec 2 from naval base sec.
we played lots of games. throwing shoes... etc etc.
then at 9.30 we finished.
i went to my aunts house to stay.

sat
i went early in the morning. was almost late so ran from mrt station to the place- NTU Alumni club
alot of ppl saw me running!!
oh. got disco dancing and nobody dance. hahas. got disco lights and everything hahas.
end up they grped us into new grps!!
there were four grps
so because me,bryan,glen and albert sat together. we were in totally different grps! all split up
LOL
then we had blind folds.
grp 1 were cats, grp 2 were cows, grp 3 were pigs and grp 4 were dogs
i was in grp 3 so i'm a pig.
i had to go oink oink to find other pig members.
so i found this person and another and walked around holding hands with them
soon in ended and we had to sit in our animal grps.
i got to know the person i found.
jeremy ho.
anyways. cut short everything
jeremy ho became my close grp mate.
we were both grp leaders of the same row.
and both enthu peeps hahas.
so like i talked to him alot luh
he's sec 3. bedok south sec. ex-bball. now...c----
my assists were HAFIZ, JUMANA, MELISSA
they're great leaders! hafiz super funny. jumana is hot. melissa is cute.
yupps. we danced alot. after everybreak. and yupps it was great
then came this board-breaking part.
we were like the taekwondo ppl. we broke boards.
it was to mean that we broke our fears and all luh.
that one finish alr we super high.
dancing like mad!
then after that the emotional part.
we were to depict a scene. i got to imagine what i would become in the next few years, my wedding and my children. i imagined i went to lots of countries, was a journalist, had a beautiful wedding with a hot husband, had 2 children. yupp hahas.
cried alot.
then after that ended((:

sun
learnt stuffs. talked abt grp performance
i dun wanna talk abt what we did. cause u ppl will think we're crazy
so i talk abt performance
my grp name is SEXY PIGS.
so our grp performance was abt being bimbo and stuffs
SEXY PIGS PERFORMANCE:
(girls go up)
i'm sexy, i'm hot
i'm everything you're not.
i'm cute, great hair
the boys all love to stare.
4,3,2,1
i'm totally for sure.
i've even got my manicure
the sun, i swear is bleaching up my hair
red,blue,purple,green
what's the colour of my team?
i don't know
i don't care
how should i do my hair?
go,go,fight,fight
gee, i hope i look alright.
like go, like go, like go team go WEE!
(girls come down with smug look)

(boys go up)
they did 'smack that'
dance to it hahas.

then one guy and one girl do solo dance.
cory did a super cool dance move
then the malay guy did break dance! SO GOOD!

then narrator say that we should get together.
so pigs can fly 71% further together.
then the whole grp did 'sexy pigs' as in 'sexy back'
i'm bringing sexy PIGS. yeah
the other creatures dunno how to act. yeah
turn around and cut some slack. yeah
take it to the bridge!

dirty pigs. uh huh.
the pigs will whip you if u misbehave uh huh.
it's just that no one makes you feel this way. uh huh
take it to the choruse!

go piggies go
go piggies(X8)

yupps. that's our performance
and we got 1st!!
hahas.
actually got lots of stuffs to tell la. hahas.
but difficult.
hahas.

kk. gonna have match this thurs with riverside hahas.
home match
lol.
gonna ask my EU jeremy buddy to come jiayous for me.
LET'S GET INTO STATE OF MIND
123 YES 123 YES 123 YES! hahas

i got a scholarship from brent williams!! thanks!
Ferrari((:

writtern @12:01 AM

june holiday

Thursday, June 19, 2008

hahas. long time since i blogged i guess. LOLS.
update**
3rd june
got fever that went to 39.7 degrees. thought couldn't go out tmr
4th june
went to josh bestfren's house to... HAVE FUN.
hahas.
went for tuition then straight there carrying monopoly and taboo which we didn't play in the end....
then walked to his house. couldn't really rmb where but got there in the end after much calling hahas.
then after awhile planned with josh and rickrick. then went to get the other peeps at kembangan. josh left to get glen. while me ane rickrick had a game of hide and seek with the other ppl who were walking so slow hahas. SO FUNNY ahahhahas.
we went to the house first and locked them out in the hot sun. made them sing then come in. hahas.
made lots of noise. then glen came with josh. oops he heard us. we were supposed to be a surprise and sing happy birthday hahas. but oh well. he heard MY voice. AWWW. eat and watch movie then cut cake hahas. super fun.
then when i left. OOPS i left my phone at josh's house. lol. so called josh ask him help me keep.
reached home realised i left it on his bed hahahahs. oh well.
5th june
GO THAILAND.
had lots of bonding time with my mum. was a good trip. i loved the beaches!!
1st day.(5th)
reach there in aftn. go shopping, then go swimming pool!!
2nd day(6th)
went canoeing/kayaking
3rd day(7th)
went snorkelling
4th day(8th)
went white water rafting and elephant trekking
5th day(9th)
slp slp slp
6th day(10th)
morning come back.

hahas.
yupps
then i went to worship prac on fri. can't wait to be back in chuch.
then sat i helped my uncle to do volunteer work at a fun fair hahas.
my uncle set up golf putting game stall.
super fun
i learned the art of it! hahas.
sunday went to church!! YAYAYAS. i love it. hahas. good sermon((:
then yupps. that's all. been going school since then

yesterday supposed to go for batting course...
BUT.. it rained.when we got there, at kallang.
so it was cancelled and we decided to go BOWLING!!!
so danielle, jeremy and william took mr lim's car back to school.
me, zann, zhiqing, samantha, grace, ken, kenneth hongjun
we walk walk. then the girls keep looking at stuffs so the 3boys kinda bored and say,"we walk like this take forever to reach the bowling alley." hahahahahs. then we quickly rush to bowling alley lor
hahas.
poor guys.
so we rent shoes and got lanes. had to split 4-4.
the guys dun wan sacrifice.... so i go to grp with them 3 boys lo. LOLS.
i got double strikes!! then the guys say taiko...bleagh.
ken also got strike but not as pro as me!! hahas.
in the end... ken got 2 points more than me. not fairrrr hahas.
hongjun and ken lousy hahas. i think cause they got too much strength then use and throw the ball super hard hahas.
the other grp of girls won us la. cause got sam. so pro. hahas.
then 2nd game our grp lost again. cause everyone tired liaos.
oh ya. got one aunty who seems very good in bowling go talk to me say i very good. just that my steps are wrong. i can go train and be a professional bowler. hahas. i kinda laughed to myself la hahas.
she say my ball can curve or something LOL. she say alr i do even worse.-.- hahas.
we played finish two games and left lor. ate a double choc donut. walked around. lost the guys. found them at 7 11. ate cup noodles and nachos. took bus. make alot of noise. take mrt. and bb.
hahas.
it was fun:DD
my hand super pain now. LOL.

today right.... was a super non-lesson day. there were like only 2 serious lessons hahas.
math and science. the whole day we just playing there. lOL. truth or dare. no leaking out. LOL.after school meng howe, jacinth and desmond go make fun of me la. take my wallet and hp put somewhere super high so i can't reach. or take my bag and hide. or go run around with my stuffs. make me sweat so much. in the end i got hold of menghowe's phone and asked for a trade LOL. then go piano class. it was great. then go back school find dan and the rest hahas.
kk. that's all
gonna post my photos soon
LOl
of thailand and bowling.
((:
Ferrari((:

Matthew 19:26 (New International Version)

26Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."

writtern @10:50 PM

jerseyy!!((:

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

writtern @6:56 PM

memories i wanna rmb forever

Sunday, June 1, 2008

the fun we had filling our stomachs

funness of eating alot

the big durian that gave us all stomachaches?

taken last year, when we were called KFC youths

under the rainbow of colours

SYRENS forever loved (aunty evelyn's house)

the witty aaron PANG-seh-er

HILLSONG. the family. SYRENS

super pop outing.
we helped with much unity.((:
SYRENS

children's GDOP,(CGDOP)
(sadly didn't take with glenchannnnn)

in the changing room.

me, joshster, chinster (hamster?)
i love these memories. i hope there'd be more
Ferrari((:

writtern @11:18 PM

everyone has an outer persona

EVERYONE HAS AN OUTER PERSONA
that seems so true.
this was what sarah my darling told me.
and i second this.
why else do i seem so different when i'm alone and when i'm with my frens?
LOLS
days have not been good.
i feel something tearing me down.
it's as though everything's not working out. EVERYthing.
not just ONE thing.
my parents, my life, my relationships....?
perhaps it's just me tearing myself down.
if i feel miserable, i will be miserable.
that may be true.
but i'm trying.
it's as though there are two things on my shoulder.
on one side, it's the devil.
the other side, it's the angel.
in this sense, it may be the idea of doing the wrong thing, and doing the right thing, represented by these two things.
on one hand, i feel life really makes no sense anymore for me. i have nothing to look forward to.
i have no life. i have no true comfort. no true home. no true love.
but on theother hand, i'm trying to tell myself this is not how i should think. God puts us in a place for a reason. every situation every problem, God will solve. nothing is impossible for Him.
but i think too much.
i think abt everything.
i'm telling myself this and telling myself that.
it's becoming too much. too much.
i just wish everything can pass.
now there i go again.
i just told myself if only i never lived.
but then, God created me, i should rejoice.
u ppl get what i mean now?
i AM tearing myself down.
this is crazy.
i can't take any more of this.
i need a punching bag.
i need to fall into a deep sleep.
i'd rather be in a dream
whenever i think i dun wanna be here anymore, what keeps me back is this grp of frens that i have.
all i need to do is think how they have been there for me, telling me to persevere.
thus i wanna thank them.
These are the ppl:
Joshua Poh, my dearest bestfren
Michelle Poon, always my adviser
Lynn Ng, my comforter
Wen Ting, my forever funny fren
Glen Chan, makes me laugh (can be caring)
Aaron Pang, my constant debating opponent?
Varrick, the teaser
and many more.
thanks. really.
somebody that really comforted me today, was Glen.
well, he knew i cried.
he came over, and just said those simple words," eh, okay anot? what happened?"
these are not fantastic words.
but they comforted me.
he cared, and that's what mattered.
another one, Aaron.
i was fuming with anger, he knew.
he created analogies.
"Carolyn, relax! i can feel your fire burning, wait burn until my this side chao tar and the other side still white." that made me laugh seriously.
then there were the girls who were there giving me their shoulders, allowing me to make their shirts wet.
all i needed to do was just see them, run to them and hug them. they were my comfort. i felt at home when i was with them, Lynn, Michelle, Wenting, Peggy.
thanks girlfriends. i love you all. i really do. thanks alot.
i'm being stripped away of the things i love.
i love KFC.
and i'm stripped from it.
i love the SYRENS.
and not going to KFC also takes away the SYRENS whom i love.
oh God, help me pull thru.
i love you God.
Ferrari((:

writtern @10:57 PM