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u kiddin me?!!

Sunday, April 27, 2008

are u ppl kidding me?!!
i see all the personal message on msn..
all putting
"chionging shou zha... BLAH BLAH BLAH"
everyone is like doing it la!!
and they are at like the fourth or 5th alr.
i haven't even do the first one la!!
oh mann.....
so scary la....
i think half of two-kay also not handing up tomorrow.
EVEN DESMOND DO COVER PAGE ALR LA
bleagh. :x
i dunno what to do la.
i dun even know how to do.
LOL
kk.
anyways....
today i had a whole great lots of fun playing the songs for worship!!!
TELL THE WORLD
ONE WAY
JESUS YOU ARE MY LORD
HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD
they were so nice la....
me and glen make a good team((:
hahas
lol
i had lots of fun! argh.
oh well... gotta go.
nth to post abt...
LOL
Ferrari((:

writtern @10:35 PM

yay. anniversary

wow. i finally finished three chapters of science notes!
WOWOWOWOW hahas
((:
anyways
happy anniversary to kor-mei day((: hahas
random la. hahas
oh and thanks to OOSHIES for the belated birthday cele and the beautiful card hahas
kk i wana slp alr
bye!
Ferrari((:

writtern @1:33 AM

reflection

Saturday, April 26, 2008

one of the disney songs
Reflection by Christina Aguilera

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Everyday, it's as if I play a part
Now I see, if I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Chorus:
Who is that girl I see,
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where I have to hide my heart,
And what I believe in
But somehow, I will show the world,
What's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am

Chorus:
Who is that girl I see,
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I dont know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free to fly,
That burns with the need to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal,
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

this is from pocahantas((:
Ferrari((:

writtern @11:43 AM

ouch

it's been one wk since it all ended.
but my heart just seems dead sometimes.
it's as though i can't help.
it only gets revived on saturday.
at church with all my dear dear frens.
i just can't help being down in school at times.
i can't take my mind off it!

Sometimes i can't help but wonder why.
Was it all along a mistake?
Or was it meant to happen?

Sometimes i can't help but wonder why.
Did God made it happen to test me?
Did God wanted it to end up like that?

Sometimes i can't help but wonder why.
Must things happen and make ppl sad?
Must things happen and cause tears to flow?

Sometimes i can't help but wonder why.
Why can't life be just sweet and happy?
Why can't life be what we want it to be?

All in all. i just want to tell you.
i really wish this wouldn't happen.
and if i act as though nothing happened.
deep in my heart i'm still hurting inside.
i just hope you'll find someone.
some one whom u can love again.
thanks for the wonderful memories.
i'll never forget it. not now. not later. never.
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now it's the time to mugg alr. mug well and mug hard.
i've been getting nagged at by lots of ppl.
oh well.
one person who keep nagging is....
HEJUN!!! lol. seriously la. he can keep going on and on. but in anyway. thanks la. cause it reminds me to do work. -.-
another one is....
MR GEY! he doesn't only nag at me to do work la. he also nag abt my behaviour la.
i always rmb this
"you are a diamond. but without polishing you're just a rock. you have the ability to lead well. but you're not doing anything abt it....." and blah blah blah. oh well. this one i nth to say. he always say i lead ppl the wrong way. LOL?!!
actually still got lots of ppl la. dun wan say alr. LOL

i'm now crazy over disney songs. all hexian kor's fault la!! hahas

btw i'm now setting a target for myself hahas
i must get c5 or b4 for my HISTORY!!
i must get at least...a2 for my ENGLISH
i must get a b4 for my chinese(difficult leh)
i must get an a2 for SCIENCE(i've been muggin hard for this one....)
i must get a b3 for my MATH(DIFFICULT LA)

lol all these make me wanna faint la... i think of it ah...
i only got like less than two wks to cover all the chapters for hist and science la. oh mannn.... scary scary...
kk. i go mug liaos.
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i'm so so sorry.
that's all i can say.
i just know i still love you.

writtern @11:12 AM

where it all ended

Saturday, April 19, 2008

190408
when it all ended.
ouch it really hurts u know?
oh well.
Ferrari((:

writtern @10:46 PM

IT'S JUST AN SMS AWAY.
and it's alr making me feel pain.
ouch.
i wanna get it over and done with.
it's just so difficult.
even the canteen aunty also can see i'm not feeling that great.
even he jun also can see.
what is this man?
i'm like super irritated with myself
they are all telling me that i'm so mean.
that i'm the bad one.
i dun mind that.
but i dunno why i can't seem to xia4 shou3
i'm really hurting inside.
i really wanna tell him sorry, i'm just so sorry.
i didn't expect things to end up like that.
it's my fault.
sorry.
i feel the same as u.
but i've made up my mind.
i'm sorry that's all i can say...
----------------------------------------------
enough of that.
no matter how much pain i feel
life still goes on
oh. now to add on to the list of presents and sms...
thanks to(sms):
Hongjun(softballer)
Thanks to (presents):
Hong Jun- two cute softtoy dogs.
Chelsea- two bears or something like that.

hahas.
oh yes. hongjun owe's me three drinks hahas.

i'm thinking abt the movie the Forbidden Kingdom.
wonder if it's nice. hahas
may be watching it. ((:
argh
exams coming.
must chiong alr
cannot slack..

my heart is hurting
oh so pain

writtern @1:53 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MYSELF

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

happy birthday to me!!
hahas
i'm finally fourteen. though that isn't really big.
feels neither here nor there hahas.
oh well... with every year i get comes more responsibility.
carolyn, are you ready for it?
HAHAHS
anyways
it has been a busy week.
still the usuall train train train schedule hahas.
but last fri, there was-------WORSHIP CELE at Expo max pavillion
i tell you.... it was GREAT! FANTASTIC! ULTRA-REFRESHING!!!
hahas.
i simply enjoyed it alot. had a great time of worship there.
tim hughes is great,
planetshakers too hahas.
anyways. when we got to the mrt station, it was packed like crazy!
the train came and ppl just kept pushing from behind
LOL
then i went home taking hui jie's car/
thanks hui jie! thanks hui jie's dad!
the next day i had piano before rushing to Faithhill Medthodist Church at Commonwealth.
when i reached there it was already 11 plus.
i went there for the worship conference btw. held by tim hughes and al gordon.
i've really learnt alot from it la!! hahas. really really really truckloads of stuff. hahas.
then after that i left first.
anyways
yesterday...
received lots of smses
thanks to all these ppl:
He xian kor(softball)
Shangkun(softball)
Ian(SYRENS)
Daniel(fren)
huiJie(SYRENS)
Aaron(SYRENS)
WenTing(SYRENS/shps)
Germaine(two kayy)
Zann(softballer)
Amanda(old fren)
Lynn(SYRENS)
Pearlyn(one dee)
Merran(cousin)
Joey(shps/one dee)
Bryan(old fren)
Chelsea(two kayy)
Zhiqing(softball)
Mandy(one dee)
Belle(one dee)
Ryan(shps)
Joshua Bestfren!(SYRENS)
oh i got like a few presents and i wanna thank these ppl
hahas
HeXian kor-huge teddy bear and box of sweets and card
Shangkun- teddy bear
Yijing- baseball coin box
Peggy- cute pencil box/case
Ian- rose
HuiJie- CD
hope i didn't miss out on anything..
if i did. tell me!
hahas
i'm hoping to update this list hahas.
kk. gotta go
*yawns*
Ferrari((:

writtern @4:29 AM

new song LOL

Sunday, April 6, 2008

i was choosing between two songs....
FUNKY get low song by T.Pain ft. Flo Rida
or
EMOTIONAL no one by Alica Keys

and in the end i chose Get Low cause...
sounds more funky
but i guess i'll put No One soon....
No one has parts abt my feelings((:
oh well.
saves me from talking too much.
i'm like so splpit.
on one side i wanna scream and shout and be happy cause i know that's the right thing to do
on the other side i just wanna go be a turtle and hide in the shell of mine just not bothering abt anybody and dun wan anyone to bother me.
argh.
this is getting me crazy...
i'm like being IRONIC. when i dun wanna be. i just wan everythin to go away...
GO AWAY....
lol
this is such a horrible feeling
wait till u ppl get it. you'lll understand how i feel only then
if only it didn't happen i wouldn't have any problems
"if only it didn't happen" can be since long long time ago.
if only i didn't come into this world
if only i didn't go to anglican
if only i didn't join softball
if only i didn't know him
if only he was a christian
if onlyyyyyyyyyyyyy
U SEE?
there's so many "if only"s. i could go on forever. SERIOUSLY
argh.
i really wanna be left alone
then again
i DON'T
Help.
Ferrari((:

it's one wk to my birthday.
i have absolutely no mood though.
also got nth to do.
i have no plans. LOL

writtern @4:32 PM

today was super fun larhs...
went to AHS choir concert. it was okayy only la.
not as great as i expected.
the drummer totally not good at all. LOL
forget it.
but the fun part was being with the ppl i went with
at first i thought no tickets so didn't wanna go
then he xian kor got tickets extra so ask if wanna go
but sk can't go.
end up i go la
then after church rush to mrt meet them at mrt station.
the ppl were...
he xian kor
hongjun
kenneth
ken
jeremy

then they joker sia....
four go to another cabin leave me and hexian in one. -.-
then after that we reach and met juwell anna and shien there.
lol. then queue very long to go in. finally went in and yupps.
the show.... OK only la. drummer very horrible. lol.
then after the concert....
we at first wan go to what lao pa sat to eat supper but then i think think think i decided i shouldn't go cause need reach home quick. i tell hexian say i dun think i going so he say okay. he not going. he ask the guys wanna go still. but the guys say nvm so we went home tgt again. and the same thing happened
the hongjun go find 2h guys
ken kenneth jeremy go another cabing on PURPOSE. so yeah
hahas
then when we left at bedok they abit shocked hahas.
and then we went home lor
i mean i went home
he xian go with me...
when reach block i decided to go to 25th level and walk down cause the view is super nice
LOL
oh well. i very tired other day ba hahas
God bless
Ferrari((:

writtern @12:48 AM