AHAHAHAS. IAN KOR. HAPPY B'DAE! (wishing you one day earlier XD) ure burfday on childrens' day is just too CUTE. hahas.

today went church early in the morning. waited for wen for lke 10 to 15 mins. while eating a lollipop. then she FINALLY reached. went room 23 to pack our GOODIE BAGS. for us? no way. for our kids. hahas. yays. i have kids. hahas. no la. for her p1 girls and my p2 boys. and then andrew came too. and we started packing the stuff w the help of alot of ppl. then josh came. and yeah. we started being SUPER busy. lolz. i had to pack the goodie bags, plus think of a way to wrap josh's presents for his p4 boys. the wrapping papers he had were weird ones. a MERRY CHRISTMAS one and one which is transparent. end up choose the transparent one cause no way should he give the merry christmas one. MERRY CHRISTMAS on CHILDREN'S DAY? hahas. definitely not. so yeah. was very difficult to wrap his presents larhs...

then had to move to room 24.we started the spraying stuff. and yes. i was bz again. cause haven't wrap finish present and i had ti teach ppl how to spray NICE hair. i'm the pro. hahas. i dun mind being a makeup artist hahas. instead of an artiste. lol. anyways. plus the unfinished goodie bags. hahas.

then after very long....josh helped me spray my hair plus wen i think. hahas. then wear the super long shirt. hahas. ... and yeah. moved to hall 2. and met w a great bunch of kids. it was like...."wow!" hahas. and we had not enough seats for the children. instead of saying oh man....i'm gonna say"GRRRRREAT!" why? cause it means there are more children coming to CHURCH!!! isn't that great? hahas. then i had to be w the p2 children. and had lots of stuff to do. had to go 1st level carry more chairs. ... hahas. and then yeah.

the celebration was great. the kids enjoyed themselves i guess. hahas. then the food was KFC cause we are called KFC.kids for christ. hahas. and yeah. ice cream. hahas. lolz. then they soon left and i was left w a pile of goodie bags. .... and yeah.

kfc youths took photos and hahas. we had to clean up when i realised my cam pouch missing. grr. anyways. i told josh. he help me find. .... and yeah. then after very long, finished cleaning up. josh,gab,andrew,glen and i had to give IAN his burfday present. we took pic then yeah. then decided to go eat. me,andrew,charlene,josh,gab,ian,peggy. went to bedok kfc. realised my wallet missing then no appetite. lolz lahs.

then drank milo and study while they eat lor. then went w gab to take bus. and guess what. gab actually had my wallet and pouch. so yeah. told me not to anyhow leave my stuff. THANKS NATALIE FOR FINDING IT!!! hahas.

anyways. here i am. dots. so sian. and tired. the hair spray came off easily. KFC YOUTHS. I HOPE U MANAGED TO GET IT OFF EASILY!!!((:
~~CaRo~~

look. all i wanna tell u is that i shan't care abt what you think. i know i 've done my best. you don't have to listen to me if you dun wan to. and btw. pls DO NOT USE GOD'S NAME ANY OLD HOW. i'll just pray for you. u don't have to take back your words. i'm just disappointed there's someone in my class like that. i put my effort and where's ures? thanks for letting me reflect. now that i know i've put in effort. i'm not sad anymore so what can you say?
and when you say no one will care. i'm sori ure wrong cause i see lots of ppl around me who care for me and love me. they need not be in school. i'm blessed and hope u are too. GOD LOVES AND CARES FOR ME(AND YOU TOO)
if i've offended you in any way. i'm sorry. forgive me. and if you really dun like my way of working or my attitude, pls come straight to me. i'm not a tiger and i won't eat you up. tell me what's wrong w me and i'll change if i can. GOD BLESS YOU
~~CaRo~~

my title is just retarded. hahas.
anyways. i went to city hall on wed to study/ mug. lolz. it was quite a fast trip. reached there earlier than i expected. then found that josh and glen at mos burger. so i went there and was told that "somebody" expected me to be some sua ku and reach there in 20 mins. LOLZ?! like i dun come to raffles city... and then we talked abt the donuts. hahas."somebody" said that each person can buy 3 boxes. i said only can buy 2. then i go prove him wrong. hahas. i went to the shop and took a photo of what was stated. HAH. i was right. and "somebody" OWES ME 2 BOXES OF DOUGHNUTS!!! MUAHAHAS. then study stuff and around 5.30...(?) wen ting came. just to eat dinner. ... then we oso eat lor. mos burger. i ate a rice burger. hahas. yummy. then after a while of mugging, left the place alr. we went to 'market place' which was freezing cold, and then to guardian. looked at wax which i obviously do no need. the two wax pro were thinking of i dunno what. talking abt wax. hahas. then left and take mrt. was squished in the mrt. and then went w glen to bedok. his parents were very nice to send me back home. hehes. thanks mr and mrs chan. XD same surname as me.((:

thurs
boring as usual. just rmbered that i sort of quarelled w the photocopy machine person. accused me and my frens of cheating her money. LOLZ?! why would i wanna cheat $3.10. lame. i'm gonna complain to the school.

today. we had PE. which was apparently the most heart crushing part of today. we sort of tried to bond today but failed and made me end up crying. dots eh? everybody wanted to do different stuff. i say do something sure got a grp of ppl not happy. i can't accomodate to ALL OF THEM can i? i'm not angry but sad as to why the class just can't try to follow other's wishes. we do take ure suggestion into consideration but, u know. we can't always do what u want. so yeah. that's all i can say to 1D. pls. just try to be understanding to whoever. thanks. pls think it over seriously or the chalet's gonna be a disaster.

i muz start mugging or i'll be the last in class.
~~CaRo~~

i've nth better to do. guess what. i'm now on three missions.
1st: try to get this person in my class feel accepted and try to accept her flaws and let her hang out w us

2nd: get another person from another class follow JESUS yet once again.

3rd: get another person from another class to go to church and believe in HIM.

hahas. how cool. my exams are as such

8 oct- Geog and HCL
9 oct- Sci and Eng
10 oct- Math

tada. how scary it seems. i can't wait till exams finish. then i can put my focus on the CLASS CHALET. it seems that the class really wants the chalet to happen so i promise u all. i shall give my best! our class is really bonded now. i'm so happy. its been something i've been waiting since long long time ago. thanks one dian for making these few wks and the coming few wks soooo enjoyable. love y'all

and i beginning to simply love my life now. seeing all these frens around me plus hte KFC YOUTHS. this sun we're gonna be great! hahas. and its gonna be kor's burfday soon...muz find something to give him.....

btw. i change blogskin in like less than 10 mins. i rock((:
~~CaRo~~

i've learnt lots of stuff.
ytd. i thot it was gonna be very boring in school celebrating lantern fest. in the end. it was quite fun.

first things first.

after school. ncc guys came to my class yet again. then all set off together to fall in. then. jeremy left and came back and was:" they all left alr ah?" i replied yes. and so he stayed in the class to bully me. hahas. he suan me short for like 10-15 mins. i dunno how long. it seemed very long to me. then he go take my glove.as u know....my glove's important to me. so i had to chase him to get my glove back. grr. but still. he's stronger and wouldn't let go. so how? he oso go close the class doors. dun let me go out. grr. my glove is super important. for goodness know's how long. we stayed in the class w me pleading him to give me my glove back. lolz. then finally he went out of my class...to wards the....TOILET. grr. i was like:"oi. dun lydat. dun go in lehs..." then i stand in front of the toilet door to block. but he push me in. lolz. then i quickly step out. i plead w him again....then pearlyn came out of girls toilet. i complain to her. she say;" jeremy ma. u dun give her back i tell ***** not to talk to u ever again. " i knew no one was inside so i went in the guys toilet to get my glove. pearlyn gave him three seconds. after dunno how many seconds then he give back. then pearlyn was like, i'm still gonna tell her not to talk to u anymore... hahas. end up, we gave him a chance and got him to carry our stuff cause got alot. hahas. so funny

then, i go train w zann danielle and emilyn. zann hit the ball out of school and i had to go w chermaine go get the ball. and mr chai ytd scold us for somthing not our fault. he say why all the balls all missing...then shout at us... lolz.

then i go change to my skirt and shirt w pearlyn and rushed to hall for cele. first was the singing competion. 1E sang superb. and then there were other stuff. there was this event. it was an opera show. alot of sec 1s cannot take it, all go toilet. hahas. so funny. including me.

then it was eating time. we ate fried rice. 1 Dians went to outside the canteen to eat our rice. then we slacked there. we sat on a higher ground and started cheering and screaming. hahas. so funny. then we kena scolded by this senior who was so rude. hahas. but who cares. then we go and light up the lanterns. we were so happy when we managed to light one. but soon it got on fire. hahas. so funny. then we light another pink one. and we decided to go for night walk around the school. my school-ahs- is known for being the most haunted school. but truthfully, if it's a mission school, won't god protect the place and there won't be any ghosts wad... stupid ppl. i was like sure. hahas. then we walked to the most "darkest and scariest" part of the school. i kept saying i didn't believe. then xiong zhi aks me to say loud loud at the "haunted" DNT room. i said it. hahas. then it wasn't fun so we went to the netball court which looked scary and wanted to hear ghost stories. so we sat in a circle w candles in the middle. lolz. and we cheered, sang and yeah. screamed our lungs out,did a wave etc. in the end. we didn't listen ghost stories. then we ate mooncake. but before we did that, we cheered a food cheer. hahas.

then we play this play that. so fun. it was truly the first time the class so bonded. hahas. i was so happy. then we left at 8.30 cause it was a must. lolz. how sad. then waited for ncc guys to finish their sai kang. then left w them to walk down "chang cheng". cause very scary. lolz.

cheeeers!!!

the fun song
F is for friends that u do stuff together w
U is for you and me
N is for anything and anytime at all down here in the deep blue sea

THE OI CHEER
leader:1 D oi
reply: oi
leader: 1D oi
reply: oi
leader: 1D oi
reply: sat sat oi, sat sat oi. one d one d sat sat oi!!!

ELMO
glen; this is the song
everyone: la la la la. elmo's song. etc

KEMAMA CHEER
One d kemama, oley oley ah ah. one d kemama, oley oley ah ah.
one d AHH(scream) one d AHH....ABBA!!!

still got alot. but sian liaos. dun wan say le

all in all. i enjoyed myself thouroughly and i felt a sense of a family.((:

~~CaRo~~

lately, i'm super tired.... hmm. both physical and emotional. i think. i dunno why he act so weird. nvr smile, nvr look. wad's wrong lahs?! i'm getting irritated w him. can't our friendship juz continue? like. just treat as if nth happened will you?! will u just gimme a chance or something? don't just let our frenship stop there. come on. are u angry w me or something? now, i feel as if i can't talk to u proper, not naturally. maybe, i can't even talk to u at all.

tomoro there's lantern fest in skool. its a muz muz to go. they will be marking attendance. lame. what kind of cele is a FORCED cele? lolz. but i'm training tomoro. happy. but then not.

today. we did chi test. and i know my results alr. Jiang lao shi mark real fast. i got lowest in class. i got 25/50. just passed. hais. my late slp and early wake was of no use. i dunno how to tell my mom. haish. so.....what i did today was...CRY. what could i do? the guy sitting beside me got 2nd in class-48.5/50. and my frens all got 40 plus. i'm the LOWEST. they all ask me not to feel bad and sad but what to do? i never expected such a low mark. HELP!!! i was yet again the goldfish w red puffy eyes. ahh... i dunno what to do. exams coming. my PHYSICS is a MESS!!!

~~CaRo~~

guess what! i think i'm going back to my USUAL self! those who know me well. u'll know WHAT is my USUAL self. hahas. that bubbly one i used to be. i dunno. i seem to have sorted things out and yeah. got my answers and all. but THANKS to those who stood by me, helped me and all. THANKS. and most importantly THANK GOD too. hahas.

anyways. i just wanted to post the KYBIS photos. as the compo goes:" the memories will forever be etched in my long whipcord of memory and can never be erased away." hahas. lolz.

the 3 musketeers. hahas.Ian kor from the left, followed by NURSE chin and then the owner of house....Josh.

my grp trying to figure the ans and in the end, we got it first! hahas. TRIPLE T!!!

everyone working hard but KOR shake leg on the chair. hahas.

being stupid to search for the note in the cushion. XD

trying to be spiderman and spiderwoman. hahas.

looking for spiders and tree bark and ants. scared me.

thanks aunty evelyn and karen for setting up the bbq pit! (:

me covering my face and all setting and ready to RUN!!!

me, samuel and aaron sticking our hands to the green goo.hahas

that's all so far. haven't recieved the rest yet. hais. it's taking so long...meanwhile. cover me in prayer as i take me science physics test tomoro cause there's a very high chance that i'll fail. so yeah. and my chi and eng test on thurs. hais. tests tests tests.

~~CaRo~~

1 Samuel 16:7
But the LORD said to Samuel, "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart."

Psalms 139:4
Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.

Phildia shared them. so look here ppl. God loves short ppl. like me. hahas.
~~CaRo~~

hmm...alot of things happened. sad things, happy things...i dunno.

sat:
after service, it was....CAKING TIME!!!hahas. firstly, lemme say...
HAPPY BURFDAE JU!!! MY DEAR DRUMMER FREN!!! I LOVE YA LOTS AND TOGETHER, WE SHALL ROCK!!! ALL THE BEST AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU W WISDOM!!!
hahas. we pretended we didn't noe abt her burfdae and suddenly after cell, we presented her the cake and present. hahas. so funny. was choc cake . lolz. only ate the choc but not the cake. hahas.

then rushed to hall 2 to play me drums. lolz. learnt how to do the roll. learnt the easiest one, am gonna practice and experiment w other rolls. review 2 coming up. set by josh. sure very difficult de. if fail muz drop. sad. hahas. but. i doubt i will fail. hahas. jiayous.

then went home. and blah. dropped dead on bed after studying. hahas. lolz

sun:
i woke up quite late cause tired. then bathed and went to church. i was very excited yet again. hahas. did pre-service prayer w jeannette and then talked. lolz. then kena chased to hall 2 by gab. hahas. then went to my boys side and sat. along were josh, glen and yeah. that's it. daryl and andrew were sitting somewhat at the back i guess...HAHA. we sang this NEW song...SUPERNATURAL. not really new but new for e kids. we had to do some funny actions which were FUN!!!and there was BE FAITHFUL IN THE SMALL THINGS. hahas. i love it.<3
then after service, me and andrew go take p2 boys. lolz. they were making a whole lot of noise. hahas.

then got meeting on what 2 wear for children's day. we decided to wear a long buisness shirt w tie and jeans. hahas. lolz. then i went w josh, andrew, glen, aaron, gabriel, ian kor, michelle, peggy, and abigail. we went to this place to eat lunch. and bought bubble tea which was quite nice.

then we took 67 to tampines inter. departed from abi cause she go home and went to tm. hahas.

guess what. we were in TOYS' R US for TWO HOURS. and we kena scolded alot of times. first, we made lots of noise. then we played w the toys. i pitch the small spongey ball and someone come bat w this sponge yoga thing. hahas. so funny. then third, we were tired and sat down and the staff ask:" what is this? gathering ah?" lols lor. in the end we decided to quickly get josh's toys for his kids and out we go. hahas

then we went to life bookshop. spent like 30 to 45 mins there. look at books and all others. hahas. and yamaha we oso got go. lolz. spent 30 to 45 mins there too. before going yamaha, we played a fool w josh. hahas. so funny. when i get the video i shall post it. hahas.

josh went to sit in this mini car for babies and andrew blocked the door so he couldn't come out. i went to find 3 stalls for 1 dollar change and all said no until aaron ask me go life bookshop cause they are christians and are NICE. so i mangaged. and we struggled to put the coin in. we videoed the whole thing. so funny. josh was being cramped and squashed while the car was moving. HAHAHAS.

then after seeing guitar at yamaha. i decided to leave w andrew and josh decided to leave too. went old chang kee and bought sotong. then took mrt and left. hahas. so funny. i had lots of fun.

today:
today. i was emoing in skool. dunno how to explain to u ppl. thought abt stuff. anyways. i left skool at 3 and rushed to mrt station cause meeting abi at mc cafe. to study. and josh too.i saw tan yu wei while stepping into mrt .

then came out. walk walk walk...and saw.......josh. lolz la. he pretend dun see me. then he said we were in the SAME cabin AGAIN. grr. i was like...." why u dun call me?!!!" haish. always like that.

then met abi at mc cafe so alone. hahas. and made me pray for the food and started. soon, glen came, gab came and then wen came. made quite a lot of noise but still. we were all studying. then glen left earliest and then abi. then the remaining four left at 7.20 lydat. walked to inter. took 67 w gab and josh. then alighted w gab cause we stay very near each other. so yeah. the end.

got lots of hmwork haven't done. sian.

~~CaRo~~

then ytd after school,saw one big bunch of ncc guys in my class. for ure info, my class has 6 ncc guys out of 9 guys. woots. then jeremy ma suanned me again. so i climb on the chair to be taller. he tried to push me down the chair. we were playing lor. then "someone whom i do not want to name" gave us somekind of look lahs. thinking i never see. haish.i wish she wasn't in my class. lolz. but i sall forgive and forget. lesson learnt.

then went for cca which was supposedly cancelled w chermaine regina and danielle. hahas. we took silly pic of our wet butts. hahas. lolz. and a four of us photo. hahas. so fun.

there was a point of time whereby this alumni guy suddenly ask if he could play softball. i was like:" hmm.... oh..kays..." lolz. didn't expect that. lolz. he had a weird accent too. hahas. anyways. we threw to each other, me using chermaine's glove and him using mine. then suddenly he threw a ball too high and it hit chermaine's head. aww man. chermaine was quite irritated w the guy and we decided to leave w the guy saying sori sori. hahas.

then we kept talking abt that guy. hahas. he was very irritating suddenly to us.then we talked till 6 plus and went to canteen.

talked to the drink stall aunty. then the drink stall aunty and us decided to play a joke on ncc guys. when they were abt to come, we were to tell the aunty and she would pretend to slowly close the stall causing them to run. hahas.

so me and regina and peralyn were on the lookout for the sec1 ncc guys. hahas. endup, we saw them and started running to tell the aunty. hahas. anyways. the aunty slowly closed the door of the stall and some ran. but the aunty opened real fast. haish. not fun one. but we had a good luff. then we continued talking to the aunty abt stuff including the security guard who was so mean. she ask us complain saying the guard very scared of complains. haahs. i shall do that.

then all the suanning started. now is not only jeremy ma but oso yuansheng and zi qin and kaili. lolz. so fun to suan me meh?! hahas. then kor and di dun wan help me chu1 qi4. so mean. lolz. anyways. they suan me short altogether. haish. that's what makes me wanna grow tall. hahas. prove them wrong.

then we started talking abt that guy who hit chermaine's head. and suddenly, that guy came into the canteen. regina kept telling ziqin and jeremy say that guy trying to flirt w me when that was totally not true. then ziqin and jeremy crazy go run to that guy. i quickly went to hide. they really went to talk to that guy!!!

i quickly go pack my bag wanting to go home quickly. haish. they too fast.and told me say the guy ask me to "eff" off and that i'm 13 and he's 17 or something like that. i was very offfended when they told me he ask me to "eff" off. come on. i didn't do anything. i dunno what ziqin and jeremy said to him but i didn't de2 zui4 him wad...i was SOOOOO irritated. haish. then we soon left for home. lolz. la.

so my conclusion of these two posts is that i wanna grow taller and prove ncc guys wrong.

P.S zhisen finally chatted w me online.hahas.((: and he was asking abt who suan me. then he say ask the ncc guys go talk to the bballers and see who short who tall. anyways: THANKS ZHISEN. IT MADE ME FEEL BETTER.((:

~~CaRo~~

ppl out there. lemme jus tell u this;
i will grow TALLER de.and btw, i'm beautifully and wonderfully made by GOD.
especially NCC guys. i tell you. by the time u sec 4, i will be TALLER.... i won't let u suan me ler.hahahas. i know u ncc guys will most probably stay the same height cause of ure activities. dun be too happy yet, cause this is ONLY year one. i will grow ppl.

lets see....wad happened on thurs???
hmm. oh yeah. i woke up late.but thank God cause school very near my house and that day can go at 8.45 am. hahas. then reach school, go crazy cause haven't do hmwork. then go art.

guess wad. haish. teacher told the class say those by end of lesson haven't finish art must give surrender our phones. haish. she say she alr told us before hols that muz do our art work. sian. i dun like art lor. so ma fan. lolz. anyways, that was what happened to me. phone kena confiscated. then we got released late for recess which was a very very mean thing.all sec1 classes got mini-challenge so must be early for briefing. by the time we reach concourse, all classes started le. not fair. we got less time to complete the stations.

we had to do a two min half squat, skip rope, guys do pumping, girls do sit up and some other stuff...the half squat i dunno why i almost die lor.my face was really very "ku". i train that too much so cannot do so wel....then glen mummy, dickson kor and jianyou di do the pumping VERY VERY fast luhs. hahas. i'm so proud of them.hahas.

the sit up is my best lor. i got train one lehs. so the 50 sit ups was NO BIG DEAL. hahas. i train 100. so what more is 50?! not boasting but i know sit up is one of my best. joey sit up oso bery good but she never wear short. how sad. napfa, i do 52, joey do 51. we rock. hahas. then mandy got"stomach pain" so dun nid do. and pris and i do lor. pris was quite tired and exhausted but SHE GAVE HER BEST. hahas. bennett choy jun kang was my class facilitator. so he very kind. let pris off at like 49 or 48 sit ups.

then we had to pair up and skip the rope. in pairs. and saying a tongue twister:
peter piper picked a pack of pickled peppers.
a pack of pickled peppers peter piper picked.
if peter piper picked a pack of pickled peppers.
where is the pack of pickled peppers peter piper picked?

lolz. i did one line by one line slowly while skipping. so difficult lors.hahas. anyways... then followed by jian you who do alone cross skipping and saying tow lines and then mandy and pris, glen and dickson. hahas. so funny.

then must do standing broad jump from one end of the line to the other end. i could do abt there w joey. then kena suan by zi qin. he say he can jump further than that then i say i'm a girl. end of convo. hahahas. isn't it right?!

then bell ring and we couldn't complete the rest. haish. all because of mdm zee. but nvm. we shall try hard again next year. hahas.

then aft school go 3rd lang. ate fishball noodles w pearlyn, danielle and theresa. my 3rd lang frens. sherry goh didn't cum haish. i'll miss goin to bishan w them.why? cause i'm quitting. i can't cope w French so i'm dropping out. sad. anyways. we ate and left for moelc. it was a rare occasion whereby we were sooooo early. we usually eat till very late and go shop in j8. but that day we dun feel like so yeah. after reachin, me and danielle tok abt alot of things. hahas. XD shan't tell what we toked.

then bell ring and muz go for class le. theresa go first cause she dun wan be late. lolz. so guai. then peralyn wait for awhile for "someone" but he haven't come so she left. thne left me and danielle. suddenly, jeremy came. lolz. he give that kind of smile. i was like:" why u smiling until lydat?!" he slammed his bag on the table and said:" u know my stupid bag broke?!" hahas. i kept luffing and look at his bag. hahas. so funny luhs. me and danielle keep luffin why toking to him. lolz. end up danielle left cause she saw the two latest guys in her class walking towards the class and didn't wanna be the latest so she ran after the guys. hahas. leaving me and jeremy alone. hahas. lolz. then the suanning started. he realised he was taller than me. lolz lah.

then we wwalked up the stairs together w him suanning me. but at least he finally nvr dao me anymore. hahas, then recess, iwent w pearln and danielle. then pearlyn left early too. then i walked up the stairs w him SUANNING me AGAIN. haish. i think this post is abt ppl suanning me. hahas.

after class, i walk w pearlyn to mrt station along w that suanner-jeremy ma. haish. me and jeremy were quarreling abt who had more IQ and EQ. lolz hahas. then we tookt he same train and i got quite irritated w them and decided to dun tok to them and go tok to samuel. hahas.

then when me and samuel came to bedok, the two ppl said bye to them but i dao them. serve them rite.

reached home irritated and did my work till 2 plus. ddrank chicken essence to get me awake. hahas.

kor shared this verse w me ytd so yeah.

colossians 3:23
Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men,

i dunno. i seem to have lost focus on EVERYTHING except church and God. i mean my studies, frens and everything dun seem to be important anymore. its like my time in school are blank. everything passes so quickly. my hmwork are piling up cause i can't finish them, i'm getting to be uninterested in softball and everything. I wish i'll get back to that happy self again. sometimes, what you see ain't what i feel. i may appear HAPPY but deep inside, i know i'm hurting. lolz. it's just a part of life. i'm trying to be that joyful one, the one who bubbles and all. i seriously need to get a life and move on. that i know. but it's difficult u see. no one can help me. i explain to them and they have no solutions. i guess i'll just leave this emoing at that.

i've loads of hmwork to finish. yet, i'm still blogging here. scold me ppl. oh just do that. anyways. kena caught by dm Mr Chua ytd for having a skirt WAY TOO SHORT. lolz. i didn't even fold. it was just altered. i think he see me buai song then say me. hais. wad to do. my fren fold skirt shorter than mine never tio. i never fold skirt and just a lil above the knee he "scold" me. actually he better than Cai lao shi lor. he never scold or give demerit point. let's count the no. of times i tio teacher alr. hmm...
Mr chua:
1st time- fold sleeve
2nd time- tuck out shirt
3rd time- altered skirt too short
Cai lao shi:
1st time- read book during assembly plus skirt short plus tuck out shirt
2nd time- read book during assembly
3rd time- talk during assembly
Other teachers:
-tuck out shirt
-wear necklace
-never hand in hmwork
-talk in class

lolz. the skirt thing wasn't even my fault. lolz. still got ppl suan me say i kena caught. grr. wadever. suan then suan. i don't feel hurt.

tomoro got mini-challenge for sec 1. i'm in. lolz. have to do squats, arm wrestling, standing broad jump, pumping, sit up, skipping and others that i dunno. lolz.

today, my xiao di-kai li, was training me for guy's push up. i'm happy to learn. but now my arm is very pain lor. but who cares. xiong zhi say:" eh. carolyn. u wan to bian4 xing4(change gender) ah?" of course i say no la. the reason i wanna do all these is cause i wanna show boys that girls CAN do wadever boys do. maybe not as uch pumps but at least they can do. lolz. the guys from ncc just like to suan girls. lolz. i wanna train. hahas. deborah is pro. sec 2 girl can do chin ups. the tall one. pro man. quite famous among ncc boys.hahax. lolz. anyways.i better go do my work. see ya.

~~CaRo~~

hmm. i've got the notes i took frm ytd's service ready....here goes.



Living for an Audience of One

by Ron Bennett



a question for ya: what will ure legacy be?



David had a goal:to please an audience of one....which is God. he was after God's heart.he was FAITHFUL and FOCUSED.

Soloman's goal: after God's head, to please man.

Besides, David SERVED WITHOUT QUESTIONS.that we should learn.



FAITH REQUIRES PATIENCE:



2 Tim 2:2

And the things you have heard me say in the presence of many witnesses entrust to reliable men who will also be qualified to teach others.



Be faithful and bloom where you are planted. BE FAITHFUL IN THE SMALL/LITTLE/HIDDEN THINGS. and be flexible cause God hardly directs in a straight line. Allow God to USE you and don't put ure confidence in circumstances but in God.



Proverbs 16:9

In his heart a man plans his course,

but the LORD determines his steps.



FAITH REQUIRES PERSPECTIVE:

Be confident.rmb:

Big God- small giants

Small God- Big giants.

have confidence in God. and also be prepared as opportunities will surprise you.

when God reveals his miracles, pass them tot he generation, so that they may noe what God has done....



1 John 1:9

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.



FAITH REQUIRES SUBMISSION:

Be calm; do what is right and leave the results to God. even if we are unjustly accused, don't defend ourselves. Be supportive; serve wholeheartedly even when you disagree.



1 Peter 2:18

and,

"A stone that causes men to stumble

and a rock that makes them fall." They stumble because they disobey the message—which is also what they were destined for.



Main point:

there's no limit to what God can do.

to live, not to please man but the audience of one,God, by keeping focus on HIM.



Praise God. so much things i've learnt.



today, after school i went to meet josh at tapines mrt station. then we went to mc cafe to sit. i bought an apple crumble while josh bought a meal or something....then we talked and all. i had to do a brochure so he helped me...using his laptop. we listened music and talked....there was a time when suddenly,it was raining mayonnaise!!! ahhhh!!! hahas. anyways. i felt mayonnaise on my hand and saw a plop on josh's laptop. then, josh's sleeve had mayonnaise too. it was the guy beside our table. he was opening the packet of mayonnaise when suddenly, it all spurted out. hahas. so funny. hahahahas. josh was so worried that there would be mayonnaise on his hair... hahas. then at like 7.25 we packed up.... josh was gonna be late for his cell grp. awww man... sori...((: we took 67 and josh got hit two times by the same guy. first got kicked on the leg(accidentally0, then the bus came to a halt andthe guy's bag hit josh on the face(accidentally). hahas. i couldn't stop laughing....hahas. anyways. gotta do my geog. hais. so boring.
~~CaRo~~

hahax. ytd was grrrrrrrrreat.

first, i took a bus to tanah merah mrt. then i boarded the bus. i went in and looked out of the window feeling bored. then i reached tampines. after scanning my ez-link card, i turned to my left to go down the stairs but guess what. i saw josh.in black w earphones. i got a BIG shock. i poked him but he pretended not to feel. then i poked him more. he took off his earphones and said :"what?!" i think i asked him what he was doing there. he said that i was on the SAME train as him and also in the SAME cabin. I was like:" what?! how come i didn't realise???!!!" he said i looked at the window and didn't see him. so he pretended not to see me and tada.... he gave me a shock. we walked out w me feeling all embarassed cause i was so stupid and didn't realise he was there....

we saw the whole "gang"....jkjk. we're not a gang but a group of christ lovers. hahas. anyways. they were standing outside mac of tm and talking. there was....

SEBASTIAN

AARON

GLEN

MICHELLE


WEN TING

PEGGY

JEANETTE

ME

JOSH

ARIES(i dunno how to spell her name but she's aaron's sis)

i didn't miss out anybody did i? i guess not. then we went to food court. they bought their food while i bought chawanmushi. hahas. it was suuuuuuuuuuper nice.((: and i turned and saw iryan and mattheus with their frens. they kept looking at me(i guess they find me and wen familiar) so i kept covering my face. anyways. it was running late and i decided to help them check the tickets....and i ran to the cinema there and saw nat. nat was like alone. shw told me aaron ask her to wait there. grr. that forgetful aaron. so i went back to the food court w nat, gave aaron a scolding and told them that there were still tickets. but in the end, ABIGAIL and GABRIEL haven't come so can't go watch and they still haven't finish their lunch so we decided to go to century square cinema to watch the 3.40 show. we walked here, walked there to shop. suddenly i saw khan liang and his bball fren and i was like hiding... i think khan liang saw me and was like... i dunno what he was doing lor.....grr. so irritatin.

we went to m1 to check out phones...and also ESPRIT. which was the lady's store... and the guys followed in... hahas.i think the staff was like abit irritated by us...hahas. i saw this jacket which i really really like but it costs like erms....129.90. hahas. they ask josh to buy for me...i was like. yeah. like real man.

then we went to century square and we took lots of pictures in front of the escalator. i think got ppl think we crazy. so we purposely act like we are tourists from taiwan or china hahas. we bought the tickets we cost $123.5 in total. but hey. i've just realised i didn't get the change or fifty cents. oh well. its alright. then me nat and wen shared a combo(large) .... and we went in a lil late. hahas. cause we took lots of pics with the long row of tickets. hahas.

but just as we sat, the movie started so it was alright.it was a great seat. but u know seating beside josh can sometimes be the most embarassing place to sit. why? cause his laugh is like so weird and funny. he sometimes cackles. oh well. it's just TOO unique. it was a great show alright. hahas. i luffed alot. hahas. THERE'S GONNA BE A FLOOD ON 22 SEPTEMBER!!! lolz. jkjk. it's just part of the show. XD

then we left all happy, wanting to take a pic in the cinema but got chaased by the cleaner cause it wasn't allowed. so we went outside the cinema to take and was chased by the security guard. grr.... so we decided to move somewhere else to take that grp foto but the security guard was following us so we went to the arcade to let the security guard go away. hahas. then we went to the lift there and got ready. we saw this lady and asked her to help us take. she was very nice and took photos for us. we went in the lift and took photos with the help of the mirror. hahas. so cool. then i left the grp to go to changi airport.

on the way, my mum called and said that my father had left already. i was so sad cause i won't be seeing my dad for a month or more. grr. hais. if only i was a lil faster..... i didn't even get to say bye to my dad. grr. then my mum, me, marcus and ian went to expo for fun. there was Times book fair and bought a pencile case(for josh), a pen for myself which costs $40 on discount and a pen and pencil for whoever which costs $30. the pen is a fountain pen which made in germany. the pen and pencil too. great price.

then we went to the malay fair too. there was all kinds of malay stuff. from food to carpets. we bought lots of fried cempedak which costs 8 for $2. it was kinda cheap cause pasar malam sells 4 or 5 for $2 or $3. so we bought like $8 of the cempedak....after walking around. i bought a pair of ripples slippers too.... and we left after a long while and reached home very late...hahas.

today

today. i woke up at 7.15 am when i actually slept at 12am. gosh. so tired. but i forced myself to wake up cause i was to go to church.... weets. i love it. hahas. i'm totally hyper and happy when i'm in church. hahas. anyway. i met gabriel in hall 1. and waited for daryl to come... and then i smsed josh to ask where he was... the other youths who supposedly said they wanted to come didn't turn up.... hais. these ppl ah... hahas. anyways. we had a great time worshiping HIM. then there was a great sermon...i'll update abt what he said. the speaker was ROB BENNETT. he talked abt how we must be faithful and all. and hah. there was this part which really rang a bell in me josh and gabriel's head....it was...
BE FAITHFUL IN THE SMALL THINGS.
hah. kfc youths. do u find it familiar. here goes this super super cute song.
"Everything that's taller
begins with something smaller,
Big deals starts with little things,
be FAITHFUL even in the small things."
hah. i'll update more on what he said. i really g2g. but i also wanna share w u what i learnt. XD hahas. see ya.
~~CaRo~~

there's something i never know how to do...i never know what title i should give!!! anyways. i'm so happy cause i'm going to the movies... EVANS ALMIGHTY HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!! hahas. g2g ppl. i'm in for a great day!!!! hahas.((: tampines mall i love you. XD
~~CaRo~~

hey ppl. guess what. i'm in class now. in skoool. i'm attending this course called "aerospace science" its soooooo cool lahs... we get to use microsoft space simulation. there's a joy stick. and we can fly a plane on the com. any plane we want at any airport. i tell u. it really is difficult to drive a plane so ....PILOTS OUT THERE: I ADMIRE U.((: its so difficult lahs.... hahas. i can drive alright but i can't land properly.... if i ever pilot a plane, the passengers will be dead when i land. i also can't see where i'm going. what a failure. hahas. there's gonna be a competition later and if u win, there's a prize. i doubt i can win. anyways, the guys are much much better. XD the teacher is showing us how to land thru a video. but still i can't grasp it. its fun but stressful too....i wish i can... hmm. lolz. i'm just talking nonsense here cause i have too much stress maybe? or cause i feel annoyed. i'm just down in the dumps. lolz.

oh i just remembered.
KFC youths: rmb the song?
no pick. no pick. i am using my fingertips.
no pick. no pick. i am using my fingertips....

tell the world that i need more picks.
tell the world that.
tell the world that.
tell the world that i have no pick.
tell the world that i need one pick.
come on come on and tell the world about picks.
come on come on and tell the world about picks.

hahahahas. the more i think of it. the more i luff. hahahs. it's just so CUTE.....
we sang it at like 2 am in the morning cause we were bored? hahas. while eating marshmallows.
we even made a song abt marshmallows. oh and also why i took josh's pick or something like that.....i dunno. there was just so many songs we made. oh and also one abt aunty evelyn.
hais. i just wish its forever the KYBIS. cause its just so fun... hahas. i still have daryl's jacket. lolz.
oh. and i truly need to rmb NOT TO SPEAK THE TABOO WORDS. same goes for all the kfc youths. lolz. i'll try very hard though. its not easy... hais.
~~CaRo~~

yoz ppl((:
hais. i quarelled w my mum ytd and today mornin. hais hais hais. i'm just feel so irritated. i mean. gosh. i dunno how to explain. sometimes she's really so irritating. she intrudes into my privacy and all. and she doesn't understand. she just doesn't understand. i never get to go out or wadever.
when i ask her, she just asks:" don't u have work to do? aren't ure exams coming? do u noe it wastes alot of money? blah blah blah..."
i'm like :"come on. i will do my work and all. exams is in 1 month. can't i have time to go out?"
anyways. the reason i'm quarelling w her is not because of this. i dun wish to say the reason i'm quarelling w her. gosh. i'm just so irritated. i dun wish to go home today. i dun wish to see her. maybe i should go somewhere else to stay just for today. let her calm down. let me calm down. who knows? but i seriously seriously wanna go out on sat no matter wad. grr. i hate it. i really hate my life sumtimes. grr.

irritated lil girl
~~CaRo~~

i'm so tired. i slept for 14and half hours ytd. i'm PROUD OF THAT. hahas. i'm a pig. hahas. great cause i'm gonna watch evan almighty on sat. yeah! i'm so sian now. going to chi tuition. sian sian sian. hahas. i have a task of things to do.
1)wash daryl's jacket(something i really really wanna do)
2)do my hmwork... which i haven't touched so far
3)decorate the TABOO board.
4)wash my nike shoe
5)wash my bear bear. (cause many ppl touched it and i'm afraid it'll get sick)

so far that's all. now i'm really rushing. so tata. bb((:

god bless
~~CaRo~~

yo ppl. wahahas. its 6.09 in the morning and i haven't slept. wahahas. let me be different for once and be a news reporter yeah???

good morning. welcome to KYBIS news online. it is very fine weather and the weather today will be great thanks to the kfc youths who prayed for the weather. we had lots of fun so far.

first, we met at kembagan mrt station. one by one they arrived.and soon we set of. it was raining VERY heavily...then we boarded the bus. on the bus, amos told everyone that he was the only one who knows how to get to josh poh's house.so yeah. after dunno how many stops, we reached and alight. everybody walked happily. and followed the person in front. little did we know... we were all walking the wrong way. so we walked here walked there... then me, jeanette, michelle, wen ting daryl and lynn followed aaron cause he told us that glen was playing a game and led us to the wrong way. grr. my shoe was wet, i was wet, my hair was wet. my bag was wet. my bear was also wet. grr. then we also walked one big round until....suddenly
amos walked out of a house and told me and daryl, and wen ting to get into the house. then he explained... we were playing blind man's bluff. the first game. ((: it took real long till the rest reached hahas..... so funny.

anyways. the next game was called"honey. i love you but i just can't smile." the game goes like this. we have to sit boy girl boy girl. then 1 pair will start first. you must say"honey i love you but i just can't smile." to the opposite. it was very funn. then there was splat. where we had to know the names of everyone. needed to be fast. hahas. very fun.and also some other games. then we split into the grps which were already planned.i belong to TTT other wise known as Taming The Tongue. woot. we rock. first we have to rearrange the phrase.then we were the first and went to find josh. and proceeded on w our other tasks. i'm really tired so i'll tell u ppl more next soon. anyways. we had great fun. and now everyone's except me and amos. amos i studying, i'm doing nth. ((:
~~CaRo~~


look at out hands..TTT!!!
Taming the tongue!!!


the taming the tongue ppl.

cheer:
the tongue is small but it makes great boasts.
good or bad its up to its host.
Fresh water isn't salty.
salty water isn't sweet.

kind words and bad words
should never meet.
so tame the tongue and say nice things
embrace the joy your tongue can bring.

so.................
TAME THE TONGUE
TAME THE TONGUE.
ALTOGETHER TAME THE TONGUE
TAME THE TONGUE
TAME THE TONGUE
ALTOGETHER TAME THE TONGUE.

so as a pleasant greeting
,a smile is always pleasing.

so.................
TAME THE TONGUE
TAME THE TONGUE.
ALTOGETHER TAME THE TONGUE
TAME THE TONGUE
TAME THE TONGUE
ALTOGETHER TAME THE TONGUE.
HAH!!!!!!!

Hais. I just wanna forget all those things that're troubling me. i hope i'll forget it when i go for da stayover later...... I dun feel like going to skool. i dun feel like seeing him. i'm scared i'll give away my game and lose him. i dunno what i'll do. i dunno what i should do now. avoid him or pretend nth has happened and continue with my life. its all my fault. i felt like crying yesterday. yes. crying. over a person. the first time. i really felt like crying. i totally didn't feel like going for RADICAL. anyways. i'm glad i went. ((:



RADICAL WAS GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRREAT!!!!!!!! OH MY GOSH. i enjoyed it so much. the food was great, the worship was great. oh my gosh. i won't forget it man. i was jumping the whole time. i was so ENTHU. wen and emmy didn't jump at first. it was like me only...... then when it finished, we all wanted something like an ENCORE. and the encore was better than ever coz EVERYBODY jumped and sang like nobody's buisness. XD even feli jumped too((: i enjoyed myself soooooooooo super duper much. i can't wait for the one next year. i think its gonna be better. hahas.

okays. i gotta go. must get ready for KYBIS. i really wanna forget him and enjoy. hais. i hope i'll be able to do that.

I declare myself a very PATHETIC person. lolz. i'm a failure in everything larhs...sad.

today kor never come, banana man never come. what happened??? too bz? hope they're alright. hais. missed them. xD oh. and the little guys were very restless today. play with their coins, talk here, tried burping. gosh. so restless. lolz. and yays. i want to put my sad thoughts away when i go for KYBIS. i hope i'll be happy again. i'm emoing here. gosh. i'm just can't help but keep sighing. hais. so sad. i really hate myself sometimes. i'm getting angrier and angrier with myself each moment. heartbroken? dunno. who cares.

now suppposed to do project but me glen joey rachel all stoning. STONING.deep in thoughts. forget it. we're dead this wed. grr. i'm just so sad. )):

going RADICAL soon. dunno. we wearing black or white. the rest of the krc youths go glen's house(glen chan) . sad. i wan go too...... anyways. see ya all later or wadever. i'm going out of my mind. dun blame me.....
~~Caro~~

I never really knew you
You were just another friend
But when I got to know you,
I let my heart unbend.
I couldn't help past memories
that would only make me cry
I had to forget my first love
and give love another try
So I've fallen in love with you
and I'll never let you go
I love you more than anyone
I just had to let you know
And if you ever wonder why
I don't know what I'll say
But I'll never stop loving you
each and every day
My feelings for you will never change
Just know my feelings are true
Just remember one thing
I Love You!
keith shared this poem w me so i decided to post it.

oh. btw. i'm feeling better now.but still have abit of flu and headache. oh. btw. i can't go for cell meeting at angela's house. hais. will miss out on the sushi...sad. piano lesson just over. sian. byes......! (((:
~~CaRo~~