this is so gonna be a long long post...

yesterday i had napfa in the morning. woke up at this super early time---5.45 am!!!
its like earlier than skool days...gosh. so tired. took 31 and stopped outside vjc. it toook me like dunnno how long to walk to the place la...my first time sumore. end up i found that there's a shorter way...zzz diaos. hahas. like abt 100 m before the place we were supposed to gather...i saw a sea of white ppl. so cool. all anglican! (: hahas. then soon. they started the run. sec 2 guys first. was told that top 3 guy runners were frm ncc! surprising. thot it would be bball...hahas.then went the sec 2 girls and sec 1 boys.

next was the SEC 1 GIRLS!!! i was like so jin zhang larhs...then there was the horn sound and i didn't even knew we could run... hahas. then, i was like stuck in the midle of the whole level of sec 1 girls...i almost got tripped by the person behind la....then i started listening to music trying very very hard to keep to the pace. so difficult but oh well my determination got me passing many ppl in front of me....hahas. and i at the last part. there was this bball girl very near me. everyone was like cheering for her to win me and when i saw her one step in front of me, i sprinted like mad ... and btw, this photographer from the school took a picture of my chionging face...gosh. so paiseh. and i then i didn't noe where the finishing line was and sprinted until this teacher opened his arms and held me to make me stop... hahas so funny.... then i got my number tag. i was 10. right then, i was so disappointed, i wanted to get top 5. but everybody told me top 10 is very good alr.... grr... i was just so angry w myself for not standing in front of the queue...i could have gotten top 5 of even no 1...grr. then i made a promise to myself.
THAT I MUST TRAIN MY RUNNING WELL AND GET ROP 5 NO MATTER WHAT. AND I MUST ALSO WIN MELODY.( sorry but she just my goal to win. not that i hate her or anything but i'm just setting a target...)
then i went tampines mall w pearlyn do project and then whitesands to eat lunch....then i went home....
soon after i had a quick bath, i had to go church... i tried to memorise my verse and actually, i'm quite proud of myself for being able to memorise qute well in like 3 days i think. it was really hard work! i'm so proud of myself...hahas. btw, the sword exchange was so fun la. i managed to score 10 points for my cell. hahas. but we the HAPPY OOSHIES lost anyways...we were against HAPPY LALAS and CIRCLE OF LOVE. cirle of love are like very good la...hais. but it was so fun hahas! (: then at like 8 plus i went to the restaurant to eat dinner. was so full but the food was yummy! thank god for giving me such nice food! (:

today was the horrible day. let's start w the morning. i went to kfc which made me so happy. oh. and everyone was talking abt going the Festival Of Praise(FOP) and i decided to ask my parents if i can go. i asked on fri if i could go but was not allowed but today was the last day so i wanted to give it a shot... durin worship, the songs were so cute. and good job to aunty evelyn who led the worship! (: i was singing on the mike and was like trying to hear myself but couldn't. xD other than that, my whole heart was into the song. i could see that my bro and coux were quite amused by aaron who was praying ... hahas. i must say aaron was really into it. hahas. then after service and class with my p2 boys, i went to ask my mom and she was like..no. I felt so disappointed. gosh.
then when we went home, i was angry for alot of things and soon i got a scolding. my mum doesn't allow me to go out late la. i was so angry cause its not like i'm going out to play. i'm just going to out to worship.i really wanted to go lor....then they say i'm too young. they say all these is for my own good. EVERYTHING IS FOR MY OWN GOOD! i was like...nonsense. hais. they say i must understand but first, do they understand me?! NO . THEY DON'T. that's why i'm so pissed off. there's alot of things i'm angry at. but there's too many so i shan't post them all out. gosh. i really love being with my church frens worshiping God like never before at this very event. their parents all alloww them to go except me. some ppl are even going two time la! hais. it's just no fair. i noe i'm childish to say this but, really. i need god at this moment to give me understanding. i noe its wrong to hate my parent's so ppl please cover me in prayer yeah? that i may calm down and not get too upset and that i may forgive my parents. (: that's all i guess.