all As and i get a laptop, and a new phone, and practically anything else i want.
all Bs and a new handphone only.
gah.
writtern @12:38 AM
hope
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
i praise him when things go wrong when skies turn grey when all looks bleak when i feel blue when i just feel so tired.
i thank him for the experiences i've had for the opportunities opened to me for the lessons worth learning for the people around me for keeping me alive.
what's keeping me alive, is the hope that i'll be heaven some day.
writtern @12:57 AM
strength from above
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
hope is rising.
i feel it within me. self-control love joy peace
they're all coming back to me i feel stronger, strong enough to fight with my feelings inside of me. yes, thank God. i love you.
Ferrari(:
writtern @11:23 PM
renew me oh lord
Lord i come to you, let my heart be changed, renewed flowing from the grace that i've found in you. Lord i've come to know the weaknesses i see in me will be stripped away by the power of your love
Hold me close let your love surround me. bring me near draw me to your side and as i wait i'll rise up like an eagle and i will soar with you your spirit leads me on by the power of your love.
writtern @11:03 PM
it sucks.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
it sucks when you're helpless. it sucks when you know there's a problem, and you can't seem to find a solution. in a three words, i feel useless. hmm.
it sucks when you rmb the joy you once shared with someone. and then it was taken away. rubbed away. disappeared like it nvr happened before.
it sucks when there's so many people around you. and you realise, when you fall in the pits, there's no one who is there to help, or is able to help.
yes i may be deemed as a total immature girl. one who needs to start facing my problems. but i'm tired. and what's the problem with that. dreadfully tired. who understands? seems like it's all my own fault.
alternative solutions, unthinkable yet so tempting.
but no, God is with me. He will guide me through. i shall repeat this to myself. everyday, every hour, every second. i will hang on. i will pull through. who cares if no one's there. i can do it alone with God. yes i can.
heaven, my final destination. looking forward.
Yes Lord, i thank you. and i love you.
babbling on, ferrari.
they will WANT me, but, they will not HAVE me. cause my dream is fading, and i'm beginning to believe it'll never happen. what can a little girl do? feel small. that's all.
writtern @5:41 PM
hourglass
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Under the grey clouds, Walking alone in the rain, Tears pouring down my face, With each step there was pain.
People once said, Life’s like an hourglass, And when you reach pit bottom Many people will just pass.
However there’s one person, The one who’s chosen, To heal the wounded heart, And then your hourglass turn.
But whoever that person may be, He has not appeared. I’m still waiting and pondering, If that dream would ever be real.
